UTMB CCC is the race of my dreams. The race around Mont-Blanc and the race with the most magical finish of all races.

It's the week after UTMB and I haven't shaken off the disappointment of my DNF yet. It's going to hurt a little longer.

What was meant to be a confirmation, became a question mark. A story about my first DNF, at the Trail du Saint-Jacques.

I look at my watch. How far did we already run during this Schoorlse Duinen Trail? The answer is terrifying.